the day of my Soul

the day of my Soul

i clawed feverishly at my chest

seeking to rend my flesh

for therein abided a darkness

that prayer alone could not extricate

as the prophecy foretold

that ill fated demonic seed

found fertile ground

in the hearts of men

and we watered its garden

with false tears

from the reflective pools

of “me-ness”

that reveals us as we are

i suffer an unspeakable anguish

of a cup that can never be filled

for there is a hole in my heart

left by parting of the muses of Divine Virtue

too long has indifference

sat upon “Compassion’s” Throne

and “Grace” relegated to be but a name

a name men call their daughters

or in rote speak its empty words

before partaking a meal

i am pained

when i look upon the smiles

of the children

whose promise fade in the ether

like the wisping smoke

of a dying fire

for its fuel is no more

i have found solace

in all its brevity

in the laying of my head

upon the breast of many a damsel . . .

but all good things do come to an end

that we may discover new beginnings

so i rise

with jaded visions within my eyes

that i again may walk

my crooked path

seeking dreams of actualized clarity

devoid

unencumbered

of this illusion’s influence

but it is not to be

for what is “FREE”

but a word of distraction

and in the mis-exaction of task

i have asked of my self

many times

within the lines

of many rhymes

to what end ?

we curse our verse

with such examination

faintly elated

in our conclusions

never sated

for that ever present darkness

with its semi-onmipresence

infects all i touch

and such is why

i deny it

for prayer alone

will not resurrect the one

who sat on the throne within

yes, i defy the allusion

so, i am

a flesh painted with contusions

borne of insistence

to come to a resolution

amidst the world of confusion

again and again

i claw feverishly at my chest

seeking to rend that flesh

that entombs such a death of spirit

to liberate self

that i may extricate this darkness

which has found its way

into the Day of my Soul

(c) 19 December 2011 : William S. Peters, Sr.