by self

by self

i set boundaries

definitions

limits

protocols

as a modicum of my behavior

that i may be accepted

by my perceivable peers

why i choose to labor so

against my self

who amongst us

possess the answers

we struggle to fit in

be liked

gather friends

acquaintances

associates

to validate

that we are not alone

and in the crowd of many

we still are but “one”

this paradox of our existence

defies consistence

with the reasoning

that resides within

that betwixt our Dream Self

and the false realities we create

that we may experience

some ethereal elation

that we soon abandon

as not real

for we can only seduce our self

that we feel

but for a limited projection

in the illusion of time

and the sublime aspects

of actualization

and authenticity

still dances about us

enticing us to enjoin

with our knowing

that we are so much more

and we struggle to open that door

of our eternal memories

that evade our grasp

and the hinges of the hasp

that have locked away

this embrace to our being

have long ago rusted

and frozen

as we have chosen

for what lies in that closet

of self

was not trusted

and we have since

went on

and skipped along

in our hallucinations

listening to the song

of our supposed symphonic delusions

so we create alternative paradigms

of happiness

in hopes

that the winds will prevail

and maintain our billowing sails

to perhaps one day

actualize our desires

and to no avail

we still yet struggle

to awaken

to the soul of who we truly are

while setting boundaries

definitions

limits

protocols

as a modicum of our behavior

that we may be accepted

by others

and

by self

© 11 June 2011 : William S. Peters, Sr.