but you wanna run from your self

but you wanna run from your selfell there is

it was an perplexuous situation

one i would not wish on

any human being

as i stood before the seat

of karmic judgment

i was forced to look reflectively

at my own experiential-ness

retribution was mine to exact

upon my lesser self

the years and times flashed before me

and i had to answer

for each fleeting moment

of my life

my actions

my thoughts

my wishes

and all the misgivings

i ever conjured from nothingness

to something-ness

most of what i saw

had no validity

nor purpose

i saw my vanities

my disdain

my indifference

and my lack of compassion

in times . . .

when it was such an easy thing

to give

i was also allowed to visit

the well of abundant love

that i always knew

resided in me

and i saw my small selfish self

holding on

hoarding it

like it was a treasure

and i saw the measure

of my smallness

more or less

the gift is in giving

i always knew this

but never the less

i must confess

i did not

when i had the ability

to do so

so in the end

and summation of things

it was i that suffered

as my soul was buffered

cloaked with shadows

of my own consciousness

that refused

to let loose

and share

my sovereign fare

and cares

like the wonderful lights

we were created to be

in the image

this all happened

in the flash of stillness

where time had no import

however

that fleeting millisecond

felt like a million years

i saw tears in the souls of friends

family

strangers

and i offered no respite

nor comfort

then

nor now

and somehow

my own inner anguish

though not cute

was quite acute

know that it is never cute

when we delude ourselves

into believing

we are not a part of

the continual fabric

of Creation’s continuum flow

and this i know

and have come back to tell

whatever hell there is

it is in you

waiting for you

to continue the venue

of walking towards it

or away

the way to our ascension

is calling us

with each breath

each heart beat

with a repleteness

that will more or less

fulfill this quest

of what we were sent here to do

do you hear it

don’t fear it

for fear is what

they want you to do

live your lesser you

that they may be glorified

so love

give

share

care

sing

dance

smile

hug

offer a hand

any damn time you can

and when you can’t

let it become your intent

for we were meant to be

the Creators

the Progenitors

of the path we travel

and thus we can avoid

those perplexuous situations

where there is no way out

but you wanna run from your self

© 20 September 2012 : William S. Peters, Sr.

www.iamjustbill.com

www.innerchildpress.com

ell there is

it is in you

waiting for you

to walk towards ithe