Ultimately

Ultimately

my words are not shared

for the purpose of entertaining you

though you may find some musing within them

nor are my words offered for the purposes

of sustaining you

that you must do for your self

get your God to help

whatever that may be

or whom He / She or It

is to you

my words reflect my pathway

my thoughts

my feelings

the floors

my ceilings

i experience

throughout my journey

some may say it is my struggle

that is ok

for they are right

the days

the nights

i travel

are that of my own

they may be somewhat recognizable

perhaps

but don’t even try

to walk my path

find your own tours

and enjoy the sightseeing

you are paying for

whether by bus or train

the pain of it’s brevity

leads not to any particular levity

worthwhile

though we smile anyway

we tell stories

“Fish Stories” i think

to others and our selves too

about the Fairies and Elves we conjure

to make our lives dismally magical

i once did find a 4 leaf clover

and many 3 leaved ones i split

to sometimes 4

and many times more

as i dreamed of the possibilities

of deliverance

to where from what

ha ha ha

heaven some may call it

me, i just don’t know

though

many claim they do

i think that is what Faith covers

the ambiguity of the unseen

unknown

while we lazily await a harvest

from some seeds sown

yet we keep not the garden

with the same ardent behavior

with which we dream

do we ?

pardon me . . . .

and Ultimately

whatever that signifies

there may be truth

and many misogynistic lies

we happily hug and cling to

and we are not that much different

are we

wanting what is the Ultimate

but we really do not want to face it

with any semblance of finality

though we pretend to chase it

we would rather dream

and create visions of pretense

while sitting on the fences

of the defenses

of the self pretenses

colored by lore handed down

passed around

from ear to ear

fear to fear

tear to tear

is that queer or what

the butt kissing

and licking

and my bic is not flicking properly

cause it is made in Taiwan

yet Opie and Ron

Howard that is

are one and the same

though the names may differ

to feed you disconnectedness

and during this mess

as our ships are listing

threatening to drowns us

thus, we are poor swimmers

when it get’s right down to it

bottom dwellers are we ?

perchance ?

so ultimately

let me dance

as the clown in the court

a Jester gesturing

giving life the “Bird”

and those things i once heard

let me forget them as well

and then

at lease ultimately

i will be present

ultimately

© 18 February 2012 : William S. Peters, Sr.

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