without tears

without tears

skins and layers have encapsulated my memories

and i was peeling this onion

with a tearless disdain

refraining from an emotional investment

in this testament

to self

i wanted to see

if it was my fault

or the circumstance

happenstance

afforded my path

yeah . . .  shit happens

they say that life is fair

i can buy that,

but sometimes

people need a break

for they, we

were not prepared

to travel this journey

without a map

so we are expected to get lost

at times

aren’t we

there have been many wrong turns

i think

but with perspective

i do have the choice

to look at them differently

don’t i ?

these supposed wrong turns

have brought me to this point

of reconciliation

hasn’t it

if i could but gather the lessons

and apply them forward

yeah, i am confessing

to some degree

that i need some help

perhaps a little Cosmic understanding

is now due

for me

for you

and the world

and now here i sit

peeling the onions

trying to get a peek

at what lies beneath the skin

what lies within

and i shall not shed a tear

i shall remain staunchly clear

embraced by resolve

to overcome the fears

that impeded me from doing this

so many time before

i do not wish to be blinded anymore

by my own bull shit

nor convenient delusions

we at times cosign

and label it as an illusion

created by others

this day i am confronting me

and i but want to see

who i truly am

if i can but finish

peeling this onion

without tears

© 28 June 2012 : William S. Peters, Sr.

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